Cold... A cold, freazing wind from the opened window... Wet hair and skin, smells like a cup of coffee...) This odor filled the whole room... I miss my friends... How are they now?.. This the worts thing of making friends through the Internet: You love them so much!!!, but you can't help them... And they know everything about you: all your dreams, they just smile and don't say, that they are stupid or impossible Now YOU know nothing about me... Those stupid pages of this blog mixed up in your head and you can't understand it... Maybe, one day, you'll know more about me, but not today, 'cause...))
Huh, honey, why have you done it?=)) Yeah, it’s easy to drink 4 cups of coffee at night, but what for?)) To get sleeplessness?.. Ah, you don’t need this) You know, idioms are quite interesting… I spent the whole night for learning them)) And the USA, GB, Canada, Australia… and UA – soooo boring…))) But what can I do with this? Right – nothing! I don't like to write big and long topiocs here... I don’t know why… Lately my blog’s become so stupid and boring…) But who cares? I usually write here everything, that somehow have got into my head…) And the white snow kept falling down..)
Why do candles die so quickly?.. Why do they live such a short life?.. Hm, now it's about 2 a.m. and I'm sitting in my room and looking at this blue candle.. It's melting and its blue blood slowly runs down to the table... I promise, that tomorrow I'll start studying topics... Yeah, I promised it to myself... Hm, let's see, what I'll get..))
I've changed my design... Now it looks so dark...But I like it..))) Hm, a candle at my table...Slowly,mmm, dying? No one cares of it... Where is he now? How is he? What's he doing? Did he find a place to live?.. I'm nervous, dammit!!! Please, don't give in! You're strong!.. You can overcome all these things!.. I suppose, today I won't fall asleep again... The heart is ready to get out from my body and to fall into small pieces... I'm not nervous, I'm not nervous, I'm not nervous... Shit, I am...
Hello, ladies and gentlemen!))) Yes, that’s right, finally, – holidays) And 14 hours of sleep) Yes! Yesterday I decorated a Xmas tree and actually, that’s all!) Snow is slowly falling, bright lights in my room, nice music, and everything seems to be good. But the truth is that I don’t want this year to leave. Despite everything, it was the best one. So many unforgettable moments, emotions… And I’m so glad, that I can say this) I’m so glad, that all my friends are always near, no matter what can happen. I’m so happy, that I have those people, whom I love and who loves me… this is probably the best feeling in the world. I don’t need any presents, ‘cause I’m really happy) My mentality has changed a lot and that’s good) Material things are nothing, in comparison with all our memories) And maybe sometimes I feel sad, but this is the main point of being a human being)))
New Year is coming and knocking in our doors, I don’t need it at all, but nothing can stop it=) So, I will open my door wide and hope, that the next year will be even better, Than the last one)))
Well, here I am again… I haven’t been here for…2 weeks? Or even more… Ah, whatever! Mm, feeling sad now… I miss my friend! Only 5 weeks left. Only?) Xmas is coming, the last week of school and then holidays… Hm, the weather is wonderful! White and fluffy snow, that looked so primeval until the morning, until all people got out from their houses) And every day is the same) You wake up in the morning to the song of Green Day “Wake me up, when September ends”), have a cup of coffee, put on your clothes and make-up, try to find your iPod, say “Bye” & “Have a nice day” to everybody in the house, then a loud music, people around you, speeding at their works, small kids and their parents and this is so cool) Adults don’t mention a young smiling girl, but their small children do, and they smile you in response)) And when you try to find smth tasty in your school bag, to feed a houseless puppy, but you already know, that there’s nothing there( And a normal school day, when you realize, that you and your friends are the only people, who take care of the holiday at school and try to do your best to organize it. When you decorate your class, when you’re singing songs, and laughing on your way home with your friend. When you write a small letter to you friend, that you love her a lot and you are so happy, that she is always by your side. When you downloaded children’s songs from the Internet, and started singing it out loud, lying on the bed and laughing with your best friend. And you already know, that you have only one year to choose your life. To enter a university, to study… But what should you do, when you don’t know what you want to become?.. Hah, like always, a new game, try to understand smth from this text) I don’t envy people, who read my blog, ‘cause sometimes even I can’t understand it)
What is it?.. A cup of still warm coffee, a wet snow outside my window, relaxing music without words and my heart, beating calm and quietly… Mmmm))) Sounds good) Especially, when I slept only, mmm, 6 hours. Yeah, right, 6 hours) My cat, lying on my knees…Ha! The only good side, of being ill, is that you have to take some anti-allergenic pills, which allows you to do all these things, that you couldn’t do earlier) And this music… Like small rain-drops. But I hate rain… I love winter, because of snow, and summer, because of warmth))Two opposites… Hm, I’ve at once recollected the song by Roisin Murphy xDDDDDD “I’m a bitch, I’m a lover, I’m a child, I’m an adult…” Well, but it’s not the main topic of this note. Actually, it has no topic)) But if you’ll manage to find perhaps ONE topic in all notes in my blog, I’ll be, hm, a little bit shocked)))
Gimme some medicine, please!!! I can't stand this pain any more!!! It's too hard... I can't talk... It's painfull to breathe... Just an usual cold...But I can't keem myself from crying...Why?!.. So painful.. Away from my friends...Don't let them read this...Please! Come on! "Just Dance! Gonna be OK!" Damm, please, give me medicine... I can't be ill! I simply can't! I have a lot of things to do!!! I can't let down my friends!!! ...
It's so strange... Only ONE phone call can change and even spoil the whole life!.. Six hours of sleep - a paradise for me...A cup of strong coffee, music, a good mood despite everything. A fog in the streets... And then, suddenly a phone ring.
"Everything is bad"
Then a headache and earphones - a perfect combination... As I've already said, a fog outside... Small rain...An ideal weather to become invisible... A girl, wearing a black jacket, holding a brown school bag and blond hair on her shoulders... Do my friends know, that, when I'm listening to Keane, Placebo and Coldplay, I usually feel bad?.. Hm, I don't think so... And do you know what? I've managed to be invisible, perhaps for 3 hours... And then a stress, stress...Sel was nervous! Very nervous!!! Only a cup of coffee in the morning, and then a chewing gum as a dinner) Niceeee...)Then another cup of coffee and finally, food!) I have to pretend... I'm weak... My friends consider me to be very strong...Ha! Guys! I need your help and understanding...NOW!.. "I went to the canteen,'cause you were deep in yourself and I didn't want to spoil my mood..." You don't know, what has happened, do you?.. Nope... *a tired smile* Well, and that's why, I'll smile, for you, guys, my friends, my family... No tears, no pain, perhaps, I don't want you to see me crying... And that's why I'm writing everything here... Heh, you must be thinking, that I'm the most pessimistic person in the whole world... But that's not true!..I'm just weak now, and that's all...I'll be alright...
All people are tend to be in hurry...There look forward to a new day...But time runs too quickly...And then in a couple of years you want to turn everything back...But you can do nothing...There is a moment in our life, when we realize, that we want to become that small smiling child again...to live again!!!To be a teen and to feel your first love, first kiss...We have a lack of time...A lack of life!..Enjoy your life, live every second(c), 'cause it's highly estimated nowadays!..Use this chance - we'll never have another one
Hm... Almost one month. So strange! Million thoughts in my head, but I didn't want write them here. I've started writing poems and drawing pictures))) What's wrong with me?.. During this month a sleeplessness has become a part of my life... Only 5-6 hours of sleep a day - and I'm almost happy)) Let me to sleep perhaps till 9 or 10 a.m. and that would be awesome! Xmas is coming in one month... I've downloaded an old movie, which I liked to watch, when I was a kid. It's so difficult to estimate the importance of such moments: just to sit in the room, to watch that old film and to smile, 'cause you realize, that you are not that child any more... And the real Xmas comes, when all your friends and relatives are happy. And you are not interesting in presents for yourself any more) You're dreaming about the best way of finding best presents for them)
A morning... Only 3 hours of sleep... A cup of coffee!!! My music! Loud! Very loud!!! Come on!!!.. That's all I need now! Smile, honey! OK? *smiling* 2 weeks till smth new... 8 weeks till the 1st end... Yeah! xDDD
Do you know what's the date today?! Yeah, you're right - the 31st of October & it means, that... Today is the Halloween! Thus Happy Halloween to everybody!!!
Hm, but the weather is soooo bad: rain, wind... WTF?! I hope, that this year I won't read about the political systems of English-speaking coutries all night In 40 minutes I'm leaving the house and going to the cinema with my friends... Last three days of freedom and then - schooool... Pf! A scary word... And, of course, the 2d of November - a big-big suprise for our friend
Fear... Why?! I'm afraid not to know what to say. Stupid topics!.. USA! USA! USA! Dammit! No, I'm not nervous! And also a writing... I'm really afraid to fail everything!!! I need to meet Kate...A cinema. Yeah... Always, when I need to talk to her, I hear only this stupid voice in the cell phone "...try to call later..." And all those letters))It was so nice to read them.
Autumn... It's so cool to view main pages of different sites and to read smth like: "Ah! Autumn!!! What a wonderful season!" & "Dammit! I hate it! This stupid fall always only spoils everything in my life" xDDD It might sound strange, but I feel nothing about it! Just NOTHING! I'm a kind of a mix of all these feelings))) Hm, even less then 2 weeks left till the that competition, but I don't care!=) And then FLEX... *smiling* I will never win it, but, honestly, I don't want to! xD USA... Sure, a nice state, but!!! Poor Ksenya... Now she is in the USA and do you know what? Her family doesn't give her any food, the temperature in her room is about 15C, the nearest shop is 20 mins away by car and she has no warm clothes, 'cause they don't allow her to go and buy some!!! And this is one of the richest states in the world?!Pf! No way! UA - the best country ever! xDDD
Ok, I'm back...But not for long! On the 8th of November I'm going to the olimpiyad.
NICE!!! xDDD
But I don't care about it, probably because I'm tired of all these bla-bla-bla-bla))) Now I'm thinking about smth else)
Mmmm, London! England!!!
Dreams-dreams xDDD Sure, I have a chance to go to London for 2 or 3 weeks, but what about a price of such a trip?.. Ah, it doesn't matter!))) Now I'm thinking only about the redecoration at home! It will be great, if we would finish it before New Year!)))
Paramore - Here we go again Mood: Soso I want: Emm, I don't know Tags: My life
A headache... Again!!! Damm it!!! Try to do my h/t, but I can't... No one needs to know about this... So why I'm writting this?.. My head simply doesn't work. What's wrong with me?.. Now I really want to feel fit... Where is my bed?.. No where! I don't have it now!!! A redecoration... A scary word... I can find nothing...
Who is SHE? What does SHE mean in our lives? Or, SHE IS our lives?.. No!!! It's wrong!!! SHE is evil!!!SHE kills people!.. We fight with HER since our first breath and till the end of our lives!.. I always thought, that our life - it's the only one to be blamed in all our difficulties! But no... SHE is!!! Everyday we meet HER! Everywhere!!! SHE steps silently and then, suddenly, when we don't expect HER to turn up, SHE rushes through the crowd and choose us!.. And that's when a real fight begins! But not all of us can overcome HER!.. Only the strongest!.. Who has a strong will... My mother does and she did it!!! She won the fight!!! She proved, that human beings can be stronger, then SHE is!!! SHE is our destiny!..
Ah, do you know, why I like Thursdays?.. 'Cause on Thursdays' mornings I get up and say myself:"Hold on! Only 2 days left till holidays... Cheer up!"
Tomorrow is Thursday!
But the morning of the Friday is the nicest thing:
"Finally!!! The end of the week!!!"=)
And I also like, when we don't have to come on the 1st lesson))) Tomorrow I'm sleeping for one more hour longer)))
Only 4 lessons till 13:15 and then: Home, Sweet home!! xDDD Autumn makes me feel always tired... Or, maybe it's school?)))
Doesn't matter!
I must admit, that I'm quite a sleepyhead) It's horrible, when I have to rise at 6:25... Of course, I don't sleep till 16:00, but... 12 hours for a sleep - the best time to feel fit)))
Neon lights...Lamps... That's how my sma-a-all town looks at night!.. You may say, that every city is like this. But I will never accept this!
It's so nice to sit in my dad's car... To lean on the chair... And to listen to the loud play in my earphones... Mmmm, I do this every evening...
And I like it!!!
Yes, I must admit, that I like beautiful cars... So, who am I? A hopeless romantic?!
Who cares about this?!
"I believe in you! And I want all your dreams to come true, like in all those romantic films, that you like them so much!))" Katty))) Here's the person, who understands me... But, she doesn't forget to get me back to Earth, when I'm somewhere, only I know)))
So difficult!.. All these things... Put them into the boxes... I don't feel like saying "Bye" to them... I'm not ready yet!!! No! Don't take my memories!.. I can't handle this situation! It looks so gloomy!..
Two days of sleeping, listening to the music and mixing in the ICQ!.. Thank Goodness!!! So tired of going to school!!!Just wanna stay at home and to lie in the bed!!! Ah,my pillows!!!
Why do I have to study Math, Physics and Chemistry, if I know, that I don't need it in my life?!
OMG! I can't stand it!!! xD Our English school book is so damm stupid!!! One exercise from it...which I had to do at the lesson. The topic of the unit was sport... You have to answer the questions ... So, here they are: 1) You are a good swimmer, aren't you?- No, I'm not 2) Do you have much training?- No... 3) Have you got a good trainer?- No... 4) What is his (her) name?- Dammit!!! I don't go in for sports!!! 5) Is swimming your only sports?- somebody, please kill me! I can't read this nonsence anymore!!! What can you learn, by answering these questions?!
N-O-T-H-I-N-G!!!
Or what about our teacher?.. She says, that I can't use "'cause"!!! It's a sl!!!
"We don't have Oxword books ar school, so you have to use only words from our book"
Was it a joke?!
Wonderfull english lessons: our teacher and my classmates talk about Bred Pitt, Jonny Depp and other starsAt English?! *going crazy* But I'm sooooo happy, that it's Friday tomorrow!!!! Aliluya!!!! 8 lessons, then English at home and holidays.... Ah... Amazingly nice!!!
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